I've got to share...
this could a boring post for you all, but I really want to record this for our family blog book my feelings about Matt's mission.
On September 7, 2010 I felt like a part of my heart had been sent to South Africa. I don't know when I have cried harder. Boy, does that airport scene rip a hole in your soul... What I didn't know that day was how much the Lord had in store for me over the next two years. Having Matt serve a mission was such a surprise blessing in my life. It is hard to put into words how I have felt, but I have truly grown during these 2 years. I have more clearly been able to see the Lords hand in my life. My testimony of the truthfulness of the gospel has grown more than I ever expected. My understanding of the scriptures has increased. My love for family and for missionary work has expanded. My heart has grown to love a country that I have never been to and a people that I will never meet. My heart has grown to love missionaries from around the world who have served with my son, missionary friends of his who have been serving all around the world, cousins who are serving etc.. It has just been overwhelming. We have had more peace in our home. Our conversations have been filled with awe at the hand of the Lord in the missionary work in this world. Our hearts have been touched as we have realized our many, many blessings in comparison to those who are not of our faith or who do not live in our country.
So when I let that boy go 2 years ago, I gained much more than I ever lost. Watching him grow has been the sweetest "Mom experience". Have I missed him? YES! But has it been worth it? DEFINITELY. It's amazing that it's coming to an end this week.
I never, ever thought I would be sad to have it come to an end... but I am. I am SO excited to be near him again, to talk to him face to face, to hug him, to laugh with him... but I will miss those Monday morning emails more than I can even express. I will miss the binding force that has been with our family and the increase in faith. I don't want that to end... so that is my job now... to keep that Spirit alive and well in our home and with our family!
I am so grateful for the wisdom of a Heavenly Father who knows so much more than I do. I am so thankful for the abundant spiritual blessings our family has been able to receive these past two years!!